With the Help of my Friends
Last week just after I wrote Unusual Fear and Sadness, friends started appearing, on FB, in person, by email and on the phone who gave me the warm human support I needed to feel safe and to relax, trust and surrender.
One of my main symptoms had been a massive migraine headache, which lasted for days and was quite debilitating. I used to suffer from migraines when I was younger and had not had one in a long time. For me they always mean that I am resisting spiritual growth. A loving friend sent me enough healing energy to get rid of the headache but it was replaced with exhaustion, which means that I was still resisting something. Why do I resist it at that time? Because it is being sent to me from above, in Divine timing. Either I forgot that I asked for the transformation or I feel that I don’t have the human support to integrate the changes at that moment. In my forgetting and self pity, I suddenly act like it’s smart to resist grace.
Finding others who were going through very similar experiences at the same time gave me faith that I was not alone in this, that it was not just me being weird or depressed. So I was able to take my own advice and completely trust and surrender into whatever I was being taught, shown, led to.
Of course as soon as I did one of my best and wisest friends appeared on FB wanting to chat. She said the wisest, most supportive and loving things to me. She gave me a sensible, practical, truthful, LOVING answer to every one of my concerns. I thanked her for it and she said she had channeled those answers for me. Why was I not surprised? An hour later I was at peace, I had answers, I was not feeling lonely, I was feeling loved and appreciated. That’s why I was able to relax, trust and surrender. Because I had the loving human company of someone who really sees me and really understands me. And still loves me.