Out of Delusion

by Sophie on October 14, 2010

I am hearing from many healers and light workers about having to look at deeply hidden recesses of denial at the moment. Of course yours truly, as usual, is totally in synch with the Universe and with the fate of her environment and going through the same process.

The things I am learning and discovering daily about myself are astounding me. Many of the realizations are giving me answers to questions I have been wondering about for a long time of course.

So what am I learning?

  1. all the ways in which I was still dulling, numbing and dumbing myself
  2. all the parts of my life where I need a reality check. No more illusions or delusions. How can I say that since until recently  I had no idea that these current delusions were present and there may still be a whole other level of it! Fewer illusions and delusions. Reality check, reality check, reality check. It’s all part of the soul incarnating further in the body and the body attuning to our soul.
  3. all the ways in which I am not taking 100% responsibility

I will be honest with you: it is

  • challenging
  • and at times unpleasant.
  • Often surprising.
  • Physically and emotionally tiring,
  • relentless.
  • Reassuring to feel guided by such a sure hand

It feels like I have no choice but to move forward as more and more fragments of my ego, veil and illusions die daily. Part of me mourns them while the eternal part of me rejoices. The best I can do is  nurse my body, honor it and really look after it  to keep my balance while I go through this peeling of the layers, the revealing of more Light and the strengthening of my Divine connection.

I know you are all going through your own version of this. Tell me about it in a comment below! Together we learn and grow. I love YOU!!

{ 3 comments… read them below or add one }

1 Sue October 14, 2010 at 10:30 am

Im so glad to know Im not alone. Thank you for posting this. As someone who is just beginning to affirm herself as a healer, this is so reassuring to hear. It is exhausting. All I want to do is sleep and cry, as I affirm that I am worthy of love and begin letting go of the ways that aren’t really for my highest good any longer.
And then I am shown my gifts and I remember why I am here. And there is the balance.


2 Jessica October 14, 2010 at 1:36 pm

Someone told me today it is depression. I was feeling frustrated at this cycle of low energy and tearfulness I keep returning too, even as I am pushed deeper and deeper into myself to be completely honest about how I conduct myself. How I keep getting pushed to challenge myself and not settle, even as part of me wants to settle and just rest, but I keep feeling this drive to move forward, inward, upward… so I keep going. Through all the emotional discomfort, the doubts, the joy, the bliss… I keep going.


3 Patricia - Spiritual Journey Of A Lightworker October 14, 2010 at 5:39 pm

And here I was thinking that I was the only one doing the “dulling, numbing, and dumbing” myself with my feelings and denial. Thanks. It is always better to know I am not alone.


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