Since last Wednesday, I have been challenged beyond word. I fell like whatever I am not good at is being put under the microscope and amplified on a large screen, very loud High Definition TV, right in my living room, right in my face!
Patience being one of the areas where I am being tested. It’s been one of my learning grounds all my life and all the other events are really stretching that one to new levels!
My mothering skills is another area being challenged and from what I hear from my friends, I am not the only one at the moment!
Money coming and going, appearing and disappearing like it’s all an illusion and a really funny joke… ?
Boundaries, knowing what I stand for, what feeds me and sustains me and making sure that I have access to it. Boundaries with others and feeling respected. Several times a day and in various ways, some of them really unexpected!!
Sometimes Ascension is fun and sometimes, not so much! Overall I feel like I got soaking wet in a sudden and violent storm and someone just threw me in the tumble dryer: I know it’s good for me to dry instead of rotting but I’m not enjoying being tossed around so violently!
Being honest with all my raw emotions, including the recently very negative ones seems to help. I don’t feel like a ‘nice healer’ at all at the moment. Where is all the love, the Love, the sweetness, the compassion, I have cultivated for 30 years I ask? pffft, has it evaporated in the heat of summer? I feel angry and resentful on a regular basis. Which is good beacuse I am suddenly getting to the root cause of a lot of ooooooold stuff. Thankfully I also have 30 years of healing experience and I am very skilled at using the energy tools at my disposal so I am able to work through the root causes quite fast and able to re-balance in a few hours.
Of course I have also had some incredibly sweet, pleasant and insightful moments when I am at peace and in tune with my raw positive emotions and with the people around me. Glimpses of a future of eternal bliss I hope! (haha!) The best way I have found to even things out is to really focus on appreciating the present moment. Relax into it. Enjoy the beauty. I spend as much time as possible outside, looking at beauty rather than thinking. Grounding myself, breathing, drinking water and eating nutrient rich food. I find that being up on my vitamins, minerals etc really helps to balance negative emotions. I also keep on asking others for support. More about that in my next post.
What about you? Has it been smooth sailing? Or are your buttons being pushed? Are you in the tumble dryer? Still in the rain? On the other side of it all? Not affected at all? Let us know: together we heal and grow!