Yesterday I was doing energy work on myself to integrate old masculine wisdom I gathered over lifetimes as a monk, recluse etc, mostly, but not only, through Tibetan lives and female understanding of a modern and healthy life.

It was big work and required that I concentrate on the human learning and experiences to merge the strands safely. Last night when the work was over I felt different, stronger and more complete but also very lonely which I thought was unusual. I had just merged ancient wisdom and modern knowledge, spiritual proficiency with modern psychology and masculine with feminine. I had finally merged my polar opposites into a more cohesive, livable character. What could be wrong? I decided not to worry about it and to go to sleep, which is the best remedy for anything as my kids will tell you.

This morning I picked up where I left off last night and moved onto the next stage of the healing: to integrate my deep connection to the Divine Feminine with the person I had become yesterday. As soon as I brought Her in:

1. I started feeling joyful again. The joy and happiness increased until it was constant again.
2. Then I started feeling physically warmer (and realised I had been cold since the day before)
3. Finally, I started feeling other people’s love for me again. The wonderful warm waves I feel all day when someone dear to me thinks of me lovingly were flowing through my energy again.

What a relief! I wasn’t lonely any more. I have known for a long time that being disconnected from the Divine leaves me feeling lonely and empty deep inside. I had not realised that the disconnection also prevented me from feeling sweet human love.

Which is probably why last Tuesday I was really struck by this Abraham quote: “The way you feel is only ever about your alignment, or misalignment, with the Source within you.”

I think that we are leaping again. Can you feel the excitement in the air? We’ve done it so many times that we know what we are doing by now. The energy available at the moment is giving us the opportunity to transform easily, fast and to go FAR. I am hearing of relationships changing suddenly as many try to stay centered and true to their core self and of wonderful realizations and heart openings. Lots of energy available and we can flow with it.

I myself spent most of Sunday and Monday on the phone with a wonderfully gifted healer I trust with my soul. He was working on me. Sometimes I was supporting him in his healing work for me and sometimes the healing turned out to be for both of us. I am sharing this because when I mentioned it on FaceBook, people reacted, so let me be very clear: the only way powerful working healers can remain powerful clear channels of healing for others is to keep on clearing their own “stuff”. Good healers work on themselves and on each other all the time. We have a healing PRACTICE, which means that we practice on ourselves that we recommend others receive from us.

What “stuff”? Old trauma, coping mechanisms and negative habits from this life time that don’t serve us anymore. Vows, promises, curses given and received, guilt, shame or blame from past lives. You would be surprised how much someone’s life can improve when all that’s done on a regular basis.

There is also a lot of pro active, positive work: revisiting soul contracts and freeing ourselves from them or rewriting them in a manner that makes sense for today’s stage of creation. Soul retrieval. Remembering the beauty and glory of our core, of our soul and of our connection with the Divine. Then trusting and surrendering to receive Divine Light and Love and letting it transform us into what we are best suited to be now.

We all  need to keep our energy current and up to date in these times of fast changes. And healers in particular need to do so. I think healing is very much like electronics. Some of it is playful and gimmeky, much of it is useful and opens us to amazing new possibilities. But either way, we need to keep updating your operating systems and every so often, we even need to rebuild the hardware to increase its capability. This past week end was definitely a hardware upgrade, with all new fancy software that does more than I can yet imagine I am sure.

What are you experiencing in this fast flow of energetic change, awakening and ascension?

“UNDERSTAND THIS MESSAGE: Cast aside your resentments toward others and forgive yourself for prior mistakes, insomuch you will be ceasing your chronic self-condemnation.” ~ Lauren G Reliford

A year ago a good friend told me I was too hard on myself, harder than anyone else was on me. It resonated so I set off to “cease chronic self-condemnation” as Lauren puts it. I have been working on this daily for a year now and the work has led me to places of my unconscious and my past that I did not know existed. Turns out both were worse than I thought and I wasn’t crazy after all: I had PTSD and I had spent much of my life having  normal reactions to abnormal situations.

Today Lauren’s quote reminded me that in the past week, old resentments, old pain and old anger have really been in my face. It started at Thanksgiving. Then waned around the Solstice and came back with a vengeance after the New Year. There is not a lot of drama with other people associated with my realizations and anger. No desire to punish anyone for what happened. Sometimes I want to explain but I don’t want to justify or argue and I let it go if I am not heard.

There is mostly a lot of pain because of what didn’t happen. The pain of not being cared for, looked after, protected, nor kept safe.

The pain created by broken promises. By people not stepping up to their responsibilities. My worse bitterness is when people are so weak or so unaware that they allow children’s lives to get worse instead of better.

I wish for more courage, more honesty and more tenderness.

I understand that I created all those people and their actions in my life. I understand that they are a reflection of some part of me, of my shadow side. That I can learn from them, love them and learn to love my shadow further. But this is for later.

Right now I am being human. Caroline Myss says “Your body is your biography”. So I am listening to the chemistry of my emotions and to the truth of my body. Right now I am being emotional, honest and hurt for once, instead of being nice to everyone and transcending my pain into spiritual lessons. My body knows. It wants to heal. It is supporting all of me to heal. Later I will do the energy work and re-write my story to what I want my future to become. Not yet. Now I am accepting myself as I am and as I have been. I am ceasing the chronic self condemnation and it is enough for today.

Right now my body is remembering, telling its story and mourning. And I am listening. Thank YOU for listening also.

PS: the daisy in the picture above is a symbol of resilience and survival. “Daisy ~ Bellis perennis ~ Protection – Keep calm, stay centered and remain focused. Surmount nervousness and agitation in the midst of turbulence. Take refuge in a sense of security from within the self.”

As I wrote yesterday , there is currently an opening in Universal energy so this is prime time to heal the memory of violence, sexual abuse and physical abuse. I have just completed several mind blowing pieces of work from my own past. Remember that if you were a witness, you are also a victim.

Why does physical abuse have such a hold on us even 20 or 40 years later? And why does it matter so much to CLEAR IT OUT ON ALL LEVELS (physical, emotional and spiritual) rather than gloss over it and repress it?

Physical violation has such a deep hold on us

1. because it is stored differently in our brains than normal memories. The brain builds a kind of wall around traumatic memories and holds them separately from normal memories. When trauma memories are triggered, we lose access to our normal, rational thinking and we are “back there”, lost in fear, anger, shame and guilt.  A prisoner of the old trauma once again. So we need to take that wall down and clear the traumatic memories.
2. because it often creates guilt and shame, which are low vibrations, so those memories lower your general vibration
3. and because it affects ALL your chakras.

When your body is attacked and violated, particularly as a child, but at any age really, your sense of safety is shaken in the first chakra. The first chakra is also about money, housing and food so all those areas of your life can be negatively affected by physical violation.

If the violence is committed by someone you know (between 50 and 75% of victims know their attackers, depending on what research you read), the second chakra , where we learn duality and relationships, is affected and we stop trusting others and ourselves. It makes it very difficult to have good relationships later on in life. And it makes difficult to trust our gut instinct.

The wound to your personalty, self image and self esteem lives on in the 3rd chakra , where we define our personality, our likes and dislikes.

Often the ♥ in the 4th chakra is the wounded by the betrayal or numbed to repress the pain. It usually does not stop us from having compassion for others, particularly other victims, but it often stops us from accessing self love.

If you were not able to talk about the trauma, it affects the throat in the 5th chakra.

If there was no validation or support, you may start doubting the reality of what happened. This can affect your intuition in your 6th chakra because what you know to be true or what you know intuitively clash with what other people tell you is the truth. That can make it difficult to access your intuition later on in life.
If the violence was repeated, life threatening or particularly unfair, humiliating or cruel, it can also cause the kind of deep anger and mistrust that weakens our connection with the Divine (angry at God kinda thing). That’s a wound to the 7th chakra.

I am crying writing this because it is such a common story. So many people have been affected. In the USA, 30 to 40% of women have been sexually assaulted by the time they become adults. That does not include the beatings, the every day fear, the humiliation, the bullying. IF trauma happened, don’t minimize it. Don’t think “It was normal at the time, we all survived it, it made us stronger” Don’t normalise it. Don’t let the actions of the perpetrator live on in your body and in your everyday life.

IT IS NEVER TOO LATE TO HEAL. YOU ARE NEVER TOO DAMAGED TO RECOVER. Take action today. Contact me or someone else you trust and start clearing your energy and raising your vibration today.

For the past 2 weeks, we have been riding a wave of universal healing energy that makes it particularly easy to heal from sexual trauma, violence and physical abuse. 

I don’t know why it is so. I am just reporting from the front and noticing that those issues have been coming up to be healed easily for a lot of people around me, for many of my clients and for me as well (read “Healing Angel Day”). And I have witnessed and facilitated some extraordinary and unexpected breakthroughs in the past few weeks.

I want to spread the healing balance I am feeling right now. So if you think that your life long self esteem issues, physical and emotional pain or difficult relationships may be linked to childhood physical abuse and you want to do some energy work on it, book your session here  then call me or  EMAIL to make your appointment. It is so worth it when you are on the other side of that kind of memory and you are free of it at last!

The way I work does not re-traumatise you in the way some healing modalities do. Sophie Lhoste Healing is as gentle as it is effective. I know you are a survivor already and you don’t see yourself as a victim any more but you can take it to the next level: peace and joy. It feels great to find clarity and peace at last with issues that have bothered us for years and to raise our vibration permanently. Try it…

Just  a quick note to share with you that I noticed yesterday Monday and today Tuesday being huge power days for spiritual awakening, more specifically for the emotional clearing that needs to happen first before we can grow spiritually. The Divine Feminine is definitely pushing us to shed what we don’t need and to grow fast.

Lots of clearing of abuse and cruelty that happened in this lifetime (as opposed to lots of karmic work) in particular.

So if you’ve had a rough ride of it, know that you are not alone going through this.

This is what I have found helps:

• stay grounded
• keep doing energy work to keep clearing issues and hurt as they show up
• ask for Divine support and allow yourself to receive it. Connect to the Heart of God/dess
• ask for help and protection from angels, archangels and guides
• work through the negative without dwelling on it, release it and put your attention back onto positive thoughts as fast as possible
• LET GO OF OTHER PEOPLE’S STUFF!!! you have plenty enough to do with your own stuff.
• don’t be a lonely hero: ask for adequate and appropriate help and support asap: we learn better together

Know that this too shall pass and that we will come back to balance soon, stronger, more flexible and more loving than before.

Next power day is Thursday 1 December. I don’t know if it will be a “shake the tree” day or a soothing day. Either way: stay grounded, connected and loving!

How does one know they are supposed to be a healer? I was asked recently.

I think when we ARE healers, we spend most of our life knowing that we are different. Then later on we gradually become aware of certain abilities and talents that others don’t seem to have. Like being psychic, knowing stuff about people, seeing or hearing angels or guides, making people feel markedly better even if we don’t know how we are doing it.

Now there is a big difference between being a healer which is what you are, like being a man or a woman or being American or being musical or being academic and WORKING as a healer, which we never have to do even if we are healers. Just like you don’t have to be a musician just because you have musical talent.

How did I know I was a healer? Because healers told me I was! It happens a lot that a healer will recognize an emerging healer and tell them they are a healer, share experiences, try to guide them on the way. Often we don’t believe the first person who says it! haha! Then it happens again and we start paying attention… It’s a classic story My acupuncturist told me when I was about 29 that I was a healer and could do what she did. I laughed. But soon after friends started telling me that I had helped them get better in ways that I was not even aware of having done.

4 years later, when my homeopath, who had never met my acupuncturist, told me all the same things, I started paying attention.

Then signs, symbols, dreams started to appear. I became friends with healers, I was watching them and realized that I was jealous of them, wishing I could be them, do what they did, have their life style (which I do now, by the way!) That was a strong sign that I was recognizing something in them that was speaking to me deeply.

Two years later my Reiki Master was telling me all the same things my acupuncturist and homeopath had told me… I’d heard it all 3 times… I decided to believe all 3 of them from now on. Besides: what did I have to lose? It was very uncomfortable being who I was at the time. Like still being a teenager who did not know what she wanted to be if ever she was going to grow up.

Most healers I know go through a phase of feeling like they won’t be understood if and when they give in to the knowing that they are healers and let themselves blossom into who they are. I would say anyone who is in the process of changing their lives (more education, new job, new place to live, having kids, changing religion etc) has similar fears. That’s why it’s important to:
1- stay in touch with your intuition and know that what you are doing/learning is right for YOU.
2- watch the results of those changes in your life to make sure that they are positive, mostly pleasant and WHAT YOU WANT to do with your life.
3- create support from people who understand your new experiences and learning. That’s why I teach to groups instead of individuals: so my students can support each other as well as having me help them.

There are many teachers and many healing modalities. So you need to choose who and what suits you best if you decide to learn and develop your talents with someone.

It’s also often a question of timing: feeling ready. Or being desperate to move on. Or being so fed up with being in limbo that we just want to learn and find out what it’s all about.

All this is really why I offer my course “Awakening the Healer Within” . It’s a lot of what I know and it’s everything I wish I was told and taught 14 or 15 years ago when I was still wondering what was ‘wrong with me”. Nothing was wrong with me, it turned out to be!

The Harvest Moon in September was the real New Year, energetically. This year’s growing season was over and we had harvested. I am told the New Year used to be in October in the Northern hemisphere.

So now we are in an in-between state where I feel like clearing and cleaning a lot and reflecting on last year before I decide what I want for next year.

The clearing has been:

1- physical, in my house and office, (SO MUCH stuff has left the premises!) as well as emotional.

2- emotional: many relationships have shown their core truth and I have been surprised at how emotional my reactions have been. I have been training myself to be compassionate, understanding and to have as loving a response as possible for nearly 30 years now. You’d think I got this figured out? I can usually be the ‘nice healer’ who sees the other person’s point of view and responds with compassion. As well as learn the lesson that is for me in the interaction. But the past 3 weeks I have felt hurt and betrayed like a teenager. Or was that a 5 year old?

I should not be so surprised as emotions are the gateway to spirituality and a great indicator of how close or far we are from our truth.

I found that grounding myself repeatedly and making sure I had good psychic protection really helped.

3- energetic: paying attention and digging deeper,  I have of course found patterns that I never suspected were there and removed them. With that energy clearing, a new sense of quiet confidence has emerged. I keep receiving very clear messages that I am enough, that I am loved as I am and all I need to do is allow myself to receive that love. I know you’ve heard that message a million times but feeling it in my body and in my energy has been very peaceful and I am very glad that I worked through the last few weeks’ turmoil back to center and inner peace. And I am remembering that love is always a choice.

Enough about me.  How are YOU doing?

Energies  have felt a lot lighter since the last full moon on Sept 12. Many of the Lightworkers I know have broken through the obstacles and negative patterns that came up to be released during the spring and summer. I knew on March 21 that things were going to be tough till “some time in September’ . So after much soul searching, praying, energy work, remembering and releasing it seems that those of us who paid attention and did the work have come to the other side, lighter, more connected, more committed, more joyful and more creative than ever. I certainly feel like a whole new person (again), a deeper, lighter, easier and more joyful me.

Part of the work we all had to do last summer was to remove our blocks to accepting love and support and I see networks and relationships being created or re-configured as a result. Always for the better may I add.

Self worth was definitely the other big theme of last summer and we can only accept love and support if we believe we deserve it. So there was much releasing of shame and fear, often at a cellular level, stuff so old and ingrained into our self image that we did not know it had been there! I for one am glad THAT’ s done!

What has your experience been since the last full moon?

What if you could live in the Heart of God?  What if your Divine connection could Awaken the Healer Within?

Do you know what it takes to stay balanced in your every day life so that your core can always connect to intuition and inspiration? So that you can create healing in your life?

Every year I teach exactly that to a small group of women (men readers: pass this on to your women friends). And this year’s class is just about to start! Come and experience my teaching a free teleclass:  90 minutes of energy healing and grounding on Thursday, September 8 at 8pm EST. To attend the free teleclass register here: http://www.attunementsforthesoul.com/free-teleclass

Every year the women who study with me experience deep positive transformation in their lives. They say they are more centered, more balanced and more powerful as a result of learning energy healing that really works. They also find that symptoms of physical pain and depression improve. I teach you what I learned to recover my own health!  Ten years ago, I was a mess, I was sick, often depressed, scared (you can read more about my story here). Now I am happy every day regardless of circumstances.  How do I do it? I muscle test, I use healing for everything, I stay centered and connected. My kids know it, my friends know it and now YOU too can learn it with me!

PLEASE pass this on and invite all the women you know who will benefit from 90 minutes of free healing, good energy and a higher vibration. This is a very deep and thorough method of energy healing and it could seriously change their lives. They can register here and will thank you for it!

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